[Congressional Record Volume 145, Number 44 (Friday, March 19, 1999)]
[Senate]
[Pages S2992-S2993]
From the Congressional Record Online through the Government Publishing Office [www.gpo.gov]
A STUNNING REVELATION
Mr. BYRD. Mr. President, I read a remarkable article this week in the
Hill newspaper concerning the distinguished Senator from Georgia, Mr.
Cleland. The article recounted events that occurred 31 years ago in
Vietnam when then-Captain Cleland was gravely injured in a grenade
explosion. The injuries that he received in that horrible accident cost
him his right arm and both of his legs, and very nearly cost him his
life. He was 25 years old at the time, and just 1 month shy--just 1
month shy--of completing his tour of duty in Vietnam. Now, think of
that. Just a month to go.
For more than three decades, Max Cleland lived with the crushing
belief that his own carelessness had caused the accident, that the hand
grenade that shattered his body and shattered his life had somehow
fallen from his own web belt when he jumped from the helicopter. Most
people in Max Cleland's situation would have been consumed with self-
pity, even if they had had the grit to live. Think of that. The young
Captain Cleland certainly battled it. But as he has handled so many of
the challenges that have marked his life since that terrible day in
Vietnam, Max Cleland triumphed over the lure of self-pity. He triumphed
over his injuries. He triumphed over self-doubt. He triumphed over
bitterness.
Max Cleland could have given up after that accident in Vietnam. Most
of us would have. But he did not. He turned his misfortune into the
service of others. Three years after returning home from Vietnam, he
was elected to the Georgia State Senate, becoming the youngest member
and the only Vietnam veteran in that body. In 1977, he became the
youngest administrator of the U.S. Veterans' Administration and the
first Vietnam veteran to head that Agency. He returned to Georgia
where, in 1982, he was elected Secretary of State. And, in 1996, he was
elected to the U.S. Senate from Georgia.
Now, that is a remarkable record, a remarkable feat. It is remarkable
for anyone to reach the Senate of the United States. Out of all the
millions of people that are in America, there are 100 Senators--the
same number that were in the original Roman Senate when Romulus founded
that city on the banks of the Tiber. He created the Senate, made up of
100 of the wisest men, and he chose old men for that Senate.
So here is a man with the disadvantages that Max Cleland had to
overcome, the struggle that he had to undergo daily and nightly, every
hour of the day, even to live, and he made it to the U.S. Senate. In
all of that time, he quietly blamed himself for the accident that so
radically altered his life.
But last week, according to the report in the Hill, Senator Cleland
was stunned to learn from an eyewitness that the grenade that injured
him was not one of his own, but had been lost by another soldier.
My wife and I are reading the Psalms. Every Sunday, we read it.
Actually, we have completed the Psalms, and now we are in Ecclesiastes.
Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities;
all is vanity.
In our reading of the Bible, we have already read the New Testament
and we have read the Old Testament. We have come all the way down, as I
say, to the Book of Ecclesiastes. From the 85th Psalm, I will quote two
lines:
Mercy and truth are met together; righteousness and peace
have kissed each other.
Through his indomitable spirit, Max Cleland overcame the injuries he
received as a young Army captain in Vietnam and conquered the
temptation to succumb to self-pity. He is an inspiration to us all, and
I hope that he finds a measure of peace and solace in the long-lost
truth that was revealed to him this past week.
Mr. President, I ask unanimous consent that the article from the
March 17 issue of the Hill, titled, ``For Senator Cleland, a Searing
Revelation After 31 Years,'' be printed in its entirety at this point
in the Record.
There being no objection, the article was ordered to be printed in
the Record, as follows:
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[From the Hill, Mar. 17, 1999]
For Sen. Cleland, a Searing Revelation After 31 Years
(By E. Michael Myers and Betsy Rothstein)
For 31 years, Sen. Max Cleland (D-Ga.) has labored under
the belief that he was to blame for dropping the hand grenade
that forever transformed his life.
It was an otherwise insignificant moment in a still-
divisive war, a terrible instant when Cleland lost his legs,
his right arm and, for the time being, his dignity.
But from the confusion of that moment--the bleeding, the
flood of nausea, the blinding pain, the medics scrambling to
patch him together--has emerged an unshakable notion: that he
was most likely responsible for that act.
That is, until now.
The year was 1968. The war, Vietnam. The place, a valley
called Khe Sanh.
The valley, only 14 miles from the demilitarized zone, was
as dangerous as it was deceptive.
From the air, Khe Sanh was a bastion of streams, rolling
hills, picturesque cliffs, lush vegetation and even a
waterfall. On the ground, it was teeming with giant rats,
razor-sharp grasses, precipitous grades and rivers with
violent rapids.
Some 6,000 American Marines were holed up in Khe Sanh.
Hiding in the hills surrounding the valley were North
Vietnamese army troops. Nobody knew exactly how many. One
estimate said 20,000. Another said twice that number.
The hills were so dangerous that supply convoys could not
make it through Route 9, the main road into Khe Sanh. The
Marines turned to helicopters for their shipments. But even
that became so dangerous that C-130 planes had to swoop from
the skies to drop supplies from the cargo bays.
Khe Sanh itself was hardly worth saving. Its strategic
importance was so low that, when the Americans did finally
capture it, they let it go again.
Instead, Gen. William Westmoreland feared another Dien Bien
Phu, the 1954 battle which led to the French retreat from
Vietnam. The sight of a brigade of Marines in body bags being
hauled from Khe Sanh would have been a tragedy of awesome
proportions.
That is why the general ordered Operation Pegasus, a large-
scale joint Army-Marines rescue effort. Included in the
operation was the Army's 1st Air Cavalry Division, the
division of 25-year-old Capt. Max Cleland.
The tall son of a secretary and an automobile salesman from
Lithonia, Georgia, had signed up for Reserve Officers'
Training Corps at Stetson University, was trained in
guerrilla warfare and had always ached to fight in an
important battle.
After his first three months as a platoon leader of a
signal battalion, he thought, ``It didn't seem like much of a
war.''
So he volunteered for a dangerous new assignment that would
take him to what he considered the nucleus of the war. He
became communications officer with the 2nd Infantry Battalion
of the 12th Cavalry with the Cav's 2nd Brigade.
Cleland's boredom quickly subsided. At one point during
Operation Pegasus, he spent five days and five nights in a
bomb crater 20 feet in diameter. In a letter to an aunt, he
wrote, ``If I ever make it back to the Atlanta airport, I'll
be happy just to crawl home regardless of what shape I'm
in.''
Some of the hills around Khe Sanh were battlefields almost
as harrowing as any in U.S. military history. Marines still
boast of having survived battles known only as Hill 881 and
Hill 861.
But the hill where Cleland's fate was decided--once east of
Khe Sanh--would not become known for any great act of valor.
Its strategic importance was as a communications relay
station.
The 12th Cav's Maj. Maury Cralle, Cleland's commanding
officer who was stationed in the rear, recalls that he had
trouble communicating consistently with the front lines. A
relay was needed.
On April 8, 1968, less than a week before the siege of Khe
Sanh was broken and one month before his anticipated
departure from Vietnam, Capt. Cleland accompanied his men by
helicopter to the hill, arriving within minutes.
He had jumped from helicopters countless times before.
Usually, there was nothing to it.
He jumped, and once clear of the spinning helicopter
blades, turned, watching the chopper lift into the air.
That's when he noticed the hand grenade resting on the
ground.
Ordinarily, grenades only detonate when their pins are
pulled. Somehow, this grenade's pin had become dislodged. All
Cleland saw was the grenade.
``I went toward it,'' Cleland said in an interview with The
Hill last week. ``I didn't know it was live. It wasn't a
heroic act. I just thought it was mine. I really didn't know
where in the hell it came from.''
The explosion threw Cleland backwards. His right hand and
most of his right leg were gone, and his left leg was a
bloody mass.
``The blast jammed my eyeballs into my skull, temporarily
blinding me, pinning my cheeks and jaw muscles to the bones
of my face,'' Cleland wrote in his 1980 memoir. ``My ears
rang with a deafening reverberation as if I were standing in
an echo chamber.''
For days, as he fought for his life, flashbacks of the
incident haunted him. ``Why had I pressed my luck? What was I
trying to prove?''
For more than three months, he battled his condition in
Walter Reed Army Medical Center in an orthopedics ward known
as the ``Snake Pit.'' It was there where he also battled his
self-pity.
For years, Cleland has been inundated by the ``awkward
self-conscious stares of people.''
``I have done that `mea culpa' thing for a long time,'' he
described last week. ``Like, `You were stupid to volunteer,
you were stupid to go [to Vietnam], you were stupid to get
blown up, you are stupid, stupid stupid.' ''
His resolute spirit allowed Cleland to fight the self-
doubts and to eventually serve as administrator of the
Department of Veterans' Affairs under President Carter and
win election to the Senate in 1996.
But as he rolled that critical event over and over again in
his mind, one pervading thought stood still: ``Somehow I had
fumbled the ball.''
Last week, Cleland was stunned when he received a phone
call from a man named David Lloyd--a 60-mm mortar squad
leader in ``Charlie'' Company of the 1st Brigade, 1st
Regiment of the 1st Marine Division.
Lloyd told Cleland that the grenade that nearly killed him
belonged to another soldier.
Lloyd, now a retired airline worker living in Annapolis,
Md., told Cleland that he, too, had been stationed on that
hill outside Khe Sanh that fateful day. Lloyd said he had
watched as Cleland's helicopter came in for landing and,
although he couldn't be sure, he believes he even took a
photograph.
Lloyd provided The Hill with that photo, as well as
evidence of his service in Charlie Company. Company-level
documents could not be located for this article. But Marine
Corps archival records confirm that one of his brigade's
assignments was to set up a relay station outside Khe Sanh
during the first two weeks of April 1968 for the Army's First
Air Cavalry Division--Cleland's division.
Earlier this month, Lloyd was watching a program about
combat medical corpsman on the History Channel in which the
senator detailed his account of his injuries. For the first
time, he learned that Cleland blamed himself for his
injuries.
Lloyd was stunned. ``He had said he had an accident, that
he was always dropping things off his web belt, but that is
not what happened,'' Lloyd described in an interview. ``I was
there, I know what happened.''
Lloyd saw the explosion from his mortar pit 20 yards away
and rushed up to Cleland's torn body.
``He was white as chalk,'' Lloyd said. ``His pants were
smoldering. It was devastating. I saw literally thousands of
wounds in Vietnam. I never thought he would survive.''
Lloyd cut off Cleland's shredded fatigues. He used a belt
and medical wrappings to set a tourniquet around the bleeding
stumps of his legs. Moments later, a Navy corpsman arrived on
the scene and ordered Lloyd to help another wounded soldier
who had numerous shrapnel wounds.
Said Lloyd of the second soldier: ``He was crying, but I
didn't think it was from the grenade fragments. He kept
saying, `It was my grenade, my grenade.' He was very upset.''
Last Thursday, in the Senate Dining Room, Cleland and Lloyd
met for the first time.
For a moment, the former Army captain's world turned upside
down. ``It is amazing, it is mind-boggling to go back to the
most traumatic part of your life and have the furniture
rearranged,'' Cleland said. ``For 31 years, that has been the
only story I really knew.''
Slowly trying to digest the information Lloyd has given
him, Cleland said,``I don't know whether this gives me relief
or not. I guess it is better that way than if it had been my
fault. It frees me up to a certain extent.''
Still, for Cleland there are many unanswered questions.
``I think after you survive something traumatic, you wonder
why the hell you are alive, why you were left and somebody
else is taken. It is called survivor guilt.
``You wonder if God wants me here, why does He want me
here, what is He out for?''
Cleland said he knows he is here only by the grace of God,
good friends and people like Lloyd, who helped him when he
was dying.
``I feel I am where the good Lord wants me. Otherwise I
wouldn't be here, I would be on the Wall. Oh my God. Thirty-
one years later, it wasn't my hand grenade at all, it was
somebody else's? It's been a hell of a week.''
Mr. BYRD. Mr. President, I ask unanimous consent that I may be
permitted to proceed for my full 10 minutes, if necessary.
The PRESIDING OFFICER. Without objection, it is so ordered.
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